So updating you. I posted a blog about a guy. Well it turns out that things between him and I just didn't work out. His ex and I are not friends because of the whole idea when I fell for him, don't know if that will ever get better. Him and I are just friends and hardly that anymore. People change. Friends will come and go but you know the real ones when they stick through thick and thin and make everything work. Currently I don't have a best friend, things didn't work out with that either so I feel better off just not getting too close to anyone right now. It always tends to backfire in my face everytime. Okay so I admit it, i found another guy that i fell hard for. I have known him for at least four years. In his past he did some bad things, ended up in prison but now he is out and on his feet, has a job, a place to live and has changed a lot. Him and his ex were trying to work things out and it didn't work so him and I started falling hard for each other and hanging out a lot and stuff like that. Well one day it seemed he was completely annoyed and fed up and freaked out on me. Made me cry for two days because of what was being said and it hurt because i liked him. I backed up and told him that we should just work on the friendship, that is hard for me because i have a lot of feelings for him but I knew it would be for the best. Lately it just seems like he doesn't want anything anymore. Just being friends. There is a guy at work that shows a lot of feelings toward me so I try to smile and be happy around him. He does make me happy and it takes my mind off the guy who blew me off and made me feel completely like shit. I know everything is just confusing and i try to write it down the best that i can.
I have baby daddy drama going on right now with him and his girlfriend, the state decided to garnish Jesse's paychecks because he hasn't been paying child support. This pissed his girlfriend off and she freaked out. Dogged on me and talked shit everyday to everyone. I have to work with Jesse, his girlfriend and all their friends so constantly everyday going to work is a bunch of drama. it sucks and i been really trying to get through it but sometimes i can't handle it and i don't know how I manage to get through this, honestly.
My baby sitter that has been watching Keeara took a shit on me. She would say she couldn't watch the baby therefore I had to keep calling into work, loosing money and hours. i never said anything cause i tried to take it like a man but it affects me a lot. i switched to a girl I work with, on her days off she watches the baby and it works out wonderful.
I know this blog isn't much but i'm trying to start stuff. So you should let me know what you think or whatever, hey it was worth a try right??
